I’ve gotten a couple of emails lately from people who are frustrated with weight gain during this holiday season. If I felt crazy enough to email myself (don’t worry, we’re nowhere NEAR that point yet), I’d share the same sentiments. So that’s why I felt like this little heart-to-heart (or writer-to-reader) was necessary for all of us. Because, when it all boils down to it, there’s only one thing you really need to do:
Denim, like many other types of fashion, is all about feeling good in your own skin. Paige Adams-Geller really nailed in with her brand’s tagline – “Feel Good in Your Genes.” And she’s right, because it’s not the number in your waistband that matters, or how thin you look in those super-slimming jeans. Am I saying that I’m oblivious to those things? God no.
All of us – size be damned – have felt like crap in a pair of jeans. I can tell you the most recent time it happened to me: a brand (H.A.67, for those of you who care) sent me two amazingly gorgeous pairs of jeans. My favorite pair was the Tina Straight in Vintage (check in out in their Video Lookbook) – they were the perfect light pair. They were also, in a 25, unbelievably small. I should have known, since the last pair of H.A. 67s fit well in a 26, but I didn’t think.
I got myself in them, but not comfortably or easily. I was alone when I got them on the first time, and was laying down, back against the bed, pulling as hard as I could on that zipper and crying. Fairly sure that’s not healthy, but wouldn’t be too surprised if it was more normal than I think.
Even with all that, I have a feeling I’ll be able to make it work very soon (for the first time in my life, I’m actually working out!), but I was crushed. Sure, I’m small. I’m probably not very average sized. But those jeans… the thoughts running through my head, like “But, I thought that was my size!” and “Obviously, I’ve gained a lot of weight. Great.” were personal setbacks.
Some of you may remember a post I wrote earlier this year about my struggle with an eating disorder at a younger age. Well, as it turns out, nobody ever really gets over that. It kind of looms over your head like a storm cloud just waiting to drench you. And what I said in February still holds true today.
I think what I’m trying to say here is that no person should spend their lives like that. You are so much more than a number on a scale, or a size on a pair of jeans. There are so many more important things in life… and you deserve them all.
If you’re struggling with an eating disorder, or want to help someone you love, I’d recommend checking out the National Eating Disorders Association. And while I’m most certainly not a professional, I am here if you ever need anything… just email me.
Hold onto yourself, especially during the holiday season. Love who you are, not who you could be. And never forget that you are absolutely beautiful.